My last 2 posts have been dominated by my baking exploits of the last week or so. Now we’re back on topic! Tomorrow is our 4th natural cycle of IUI. As I am trying to think of it, the bonus cycle, the one we never expected. Our clinic’s usual protocol is 3 natural cycles, 3 cycles with superovulation, and then we’d be entitled to NHS IVF (provided nothing changes with the PCT between now and then).
I wasn’t particularly enthused about more IUI, especially another natural cycle, but when it came to a choice between a natural cycle in May, or nothing until July, it was really a no brainer. I’d much rather we were doing something than just more waiting.
We’ve been a bit nervous today. When we went for OH’s scan yesterday, her dominant follicle was just under 15mm (treatable size is minimum of 15). We were a bit nervous about what today would bring, since we’ve had a cancelled cycle before due to OH ovulating before the follicle matured to treatable size. When we went today, the follicle was 18mm, which again has us nervous, in case OH ovulates too soon.
Nothing we can do about that since it’s a natural cycle. We can make sure she doesn’t ovulate too late using the HCG trigger shot. Now, this might sound weird, but I liked that OH was again given Pregnyl. Our first couple of treatment, it was the Ovitrelle pre-filled pen, but Pregnyl has to be mixed, and needs syringes and stuff. This meant I got to help! Last time with the Pregnyl OH struggled a little with hands shaking and just not having enough hands to hold the vials and draw the liquid up into the syringe. All I had to do was hold one of the vials, but I got to be helpful! Mostly there is nothing I can do. Hold OH’s hand during insemination. It’s about as active as it gets! This might sound like such a small, daft thing, but it’s nice to be able to do something practical.
Regarding the actual treatment, once again I am trying not to get my hopes up. The odds properly suck, for starters. I’m also terrified of another miscarriage. If/when it happens, I have no idea how I’ll be able to relax, at least for the 1st trimester, but probably for the entire pregnancy.
Despite my best efforts, I still find myself looking for signs that it’ll work. I’ve not asked the magic 8 ball this time, but I’m counting magpies – there are truckloads of magpies around here. But there’s no pattern – lots of one for sorrow, a 3 for a girl, 4 for a boy, maybe the odd 2 for joy as well. Random and meaningless.
The one I really cannot get out of my head though is that OH had a stroke of inspiration in church, during Evensong. That is when the idea of a 4th natural cycle hit her. So I can’t get it out of my head that maybe it was God who gave her this idea. I shouldn’t look for signs like this, but I just can’t help it.
Oh well, let’s just wait and see what the next 2 weeks brings.